….. my son is now 13 years old

With a shock I found out that he is on drugs!

…. Why? … why is he so rebellious?

…. For 7 years …. Up to the age of 20 … he is still on it … all his friends say he has issues ….

"Mom … I want my Dad" … I hear that more than once … "Mom where is my Dad!!!"

My heart breaks every time my sons asks me …. "I am so sorry Babes!!!"

He is broken … searching for his Dad … Where can you find a man that you have not had contact with for decades???

The more my son asks where is his Dad … the more I see how broken he is … of hurt … of not having a Father in his life …

How could I ever think that I can be the Father and the Mother!!??

God made male and female for a reason …. Now I am learning all these things after I have ruined my life and my sons life and  … also my sons children's life … if things do not change drastically!!!

God help!! How can my sons find his Dad?

Please help my son God … he is broken … he needs a Father!! And he needs You Lord!!!

We have been so lost our hole life Lord … so lost … and just because of one mistake I made when I was young and I loved being rebellious!!

Now I see what that rebellion did to my life, the man that I loved so much's life and my precious son's Life …  if only I listened to Mom and DAD!!

Help my God … Please help my Son God!!! Please God!!! Please!!!!